Partner left after 9 years - now we're friends??

[AliSuddenly]

Thanks guys, not feeling too good. Woke up ill, all hot and cold and chesty and feel rubbish. Did a viewing on the flat and the person may want to buy it..they want to come back later in the week for a 2nd look! I'm wondering if I might not just stay home and not go away. And with the tenant issues ongoing.

I was wondering if I should chance a text message to my BF saying, "hope you got back safely and are ok. We should talk about the mortgage sometime when you are free" or something??

I havent heard from him today, but he said he thought he might be back on Monday. I am worried that he let his guard down and told me he was feeling low and all I said "sorry to hear that your feeling low" and then went on about films and guitar playing!? Maybe I didnt give him an opening to tell me why he was low (I'm not delusional though, I dont doubt he wouldnt have told me anyway, even if I had asked him directly!)

I cracked and rang about the mortgage today (as he still hasnt requested a remortgage and its nearly March now)...he had given them the wrong information so the rate we are eligible for is way higher than the one he quoted me. This wasnt a surprise to me but a real blow. The rent is much less than the new mortgage and I am worried how he will react to this, but I cant do anything about it. I just dont want to be the one to explain it to him ! He is stressed about money as it is (think its just dawned on him how expensive it is to live alone, as he hasnt EVER! He was moaning last weekend about having no money left).

Wondering if I shouldnt chance a little contact anyway, seeing as we were increased contact and he did fess up that he felt down and although I'm not supposed to, I am worried about him!?