Dar this is so hard. I am doing so much better now. I do not have this down by any means. I had to take a step back and look in from the outside and realize I have no control over anything or anyone but myself.

I had been allowing every thing h said and did to make me mad, sad, hateful you name it. By looking in I realized I can't control my h, how he thinks, what he feels, what he does and does not do. Absolutely Nothing! When I try, I only get frustrated, disappointed, sad, and just plain hopeless.

Over the past weekend I watched the dvd "The Secret" and am trying to apply the principles to my daily life. It's all about positive thinking.

I realize that I am a beautiful person and am worthy of a loving, supportive, committed relationship. I want my h to join me on that journey, but I can't make him. I am ok now if he chooses to come along or not.

I love our kids, our house, my job, me, my h and life can only get better from here.

Enjoy your life Dar, it's much too short not to!


Me 50
H 42
S 22
S 9
D 7
M 12
T 17
H moved out 8/2006
H moved home 1/2007 for 3 weeks
H moved home 5/2011 for good

"Learn from yesterday ~ Live for today ~ And hope for tomorrow"