Dar this is so hard. I am doing so much better now. I do not have this down by any means. I had to take a step back and look in from the outside and realize I have no control over anything or anyone but myself.
I had been allowing every thing h said and did to make me mad, sad, hateful you name it. By looking in I realized I can't control my h, how he thinks, what he feels, what he does and does not do. Absolutely Nothing! When I try, I only get frustrated, disappointed, sad, and just plain hopeless.
Over the past weekend I watched the dvd "The Secret" and am trying to apply the principles to my daily life. It's all about positive thinking.
I realize that I am a beautiful person and am worthy of a loving, supportive, committed relationship. I want my h to join me on that journey, but I can't make him. I am ok now if he chooses to come along or not.
I love our kids, our house, my job, me, my h and life can only get better from here.
Enjoy your life Dar, it's much too short not to!
Me 50 H 42 S 22 S 9 D 7 M 12 T 17 H moved out 8/2006 H moved home 1/2007 for 3 weeks H moved home 5/2011 for good
"Learn from yesterday ~ Live for today ~ And hope for tomorrow"