Hey Mako just checkin' in with ya! Glad to see your in better spirits and the kids are doing better too. I have been praying for you all and will continue to do so.
That's a real positive step your W is taking in recognizing that there is a problem. And I agree with you about the psychological issues may be the underlying cause of your W addiction. From my (unprofessional) dealings with addicts, many of them have other issues that they are not strong enough or not willing to deal with...thus they tend to self-medicate to avoid those problems.
I pray that your W will get out of rehab and begin the long road to recovery with a new outlook. The best thing for her will be to address the psychological problems she may have. Hopefully they are being tended to while she is in rehab now. Once she gets out staying busy and keeping away from those things and places that may trigger relapse is really important. I know my H said that when he first got clean he had a lot of 'drug dreams' where he would dream about getting high or even just seeking the drugs. I guess the 'on the edge' dangerous lifestyle was just as exciting to him as actually using. He spent a lot of time combating these dreams in real life by talking openly about his addiction to a lot of the kids at the YMCA and different youth groups. He told his story to try to help them stay off drugs but in the meantime it was theraputic for him as well.
Stay strong my DB brotha...I'm always praying on your behalf!
