You are NOT wasting anyone's time. We are all here to help each other.
The choices are never easy, and everyone struggles with having to make them, worrying if they're making the right or wrong one. You're only human, and you'll backslide from time to time. We all do. Learn from the missteps and make notes of what doesn't work. Then try something different.
Think long and hard about what YOU want, and when you figure that out, work on a plan to get yourself there. Set some small, realistic goals before going for any bigger ones. Focus on you, and get your confidence back.
Getting over a painful experience is much like crossing monkey bars. You have to let go at some point in order to move forward. ~ Joseph Campbell
