Out of the Blue?

[kturnernc]

That was a good link describing little things that may improve my outlook on things. I am being nicer and talkative for others in my building at work that I have never spoken to. It has made me a bit happier.

Overall update, both boys were sick this past weekend. It was a hard weekend because of that. Got a few clues that WAW was possibly trying to get a date or be fixed up. This hurt me tremendously and has obviously put doubt on if our R can be fixed. Right now, I think I may talk to my doctor about the medication I am on. I am feeling very anxious just about all the time now. My eating habits have gone back down. Thought I had at least fixed that issue before. I feel I have slipped personally, but not on the DB techniques. The WAW does not know that anything is wrong and I plan to keep it that way. I am reviewing the overall points to DBing again and again making sure that I am not going to slip. I am fighting the urge to spy on her to verify my feelings of the possible dating. I am just not in a good place right now. I am trying to wrap up in work, in tv, anything to get me through this spot.