I am so confused, not sure what hand I am playing

[Snow White]

You are 100% correct. I know I am doing this wrong. I am sorry for wasting anyone else's time. I am struggling, with making the decisions that need to be made because I am still very much in love, I am sure that my actions are actually hindering any progress.

The worst part of it is that I am fairly convinced a lot of what caused this to happen is that I am a successful, confident, attractive woman, and my husband has always had low self esteem. Well look where my esteem is now.