Well, Went to volleyball tournament yesterday, H drove, over hour drive..going down everything was okay..casual conversation....
got there and started out okay until later when he whipped out the ipod OW bought him for Christmas...How can he flaunt that in front of me like that...it was cold....then he was talking to girls at the tournament...and I didn't exist at this time...then went out to his car to use the phone....I know I'm supposed to act as if during these times...but darn it...he was throwing everything in my face...
As soon as I saw him get the ipod out I walked away..I had to, the eyes started to well up...I guess I really don't mean anything to him...OW has every part of my H...and that hurts...
On the way home at first it was silent...then I started casual conversation....then he started talking again about worrying about his job....I told him not to worry about it, it was going to make him sick....we talked a few minutes about it and stopped to eat...
To me he looks depressed, but maybe it's to tell me he's in love with someone else, to let him go...there was a time yesterday when I really wanted to throw in the towel...this isn't right, the way we are being treated....I know, I know, get a life..I'm trying...but why does he have to do the things he's doing in front of me...does he really want to hurt me...
I didn't cry in front of him, although I was close...I supported my daughter.
He looks terrible.....no sleep....living 3 lives....catching up with him?? and he has not been to the gym in a while, said he's weak...hasn't felt good for 3 weeks...
any advice besides get a life...LOL!! I think I'm doing pretty well considering...do I just ignore him or tell him I'm here if he needs to talk or would that look like i'm controlling..
Treese
Treese
H 49 M 45 D 23, D17, S12 M 25 T 31 01/07 OW H at my door w/proof Bomb ILYBINILWY 06/07 Sep 01/08 headed for the greener grass, Mar08.B#2H has child who is 9 11/08 pos.paternity
