I need to change the title now to "LBS not ready yet."
I finally asked my husband (via e-mail) a question that had been bothering me for about 9 months now. I thought I needed the answer for closure on the issue (not our relationship). He wants to answer me but face-to-face. He thinks we are at a point now that things won't get ugly if we talk face-to-face.
I had to tell him I wasn't ready to talk to him face-to-face. I still think things will get ugly and that I had waited this long that I could wait longer. I told him I wasn't ready for rejection or more hurt from him.
I'm just not ready to hurt anymore. I'd rather leave things as they are for right now than to risk talking to him and getting hurt again.
I'm okay with that though. Fortunately I have a really close relationship with God and He has promised me that I will be back with my husband. However, God also told me that some things would have to happen and those things haven't happened yet. Time and patience. Ugh! Hate those words!
Steelers - thanks for getting back to me. Obviously WE aren't ready yet. But the house soon will be...clean!
