I spent most of the day relaxing. Reading this forum and "Men in Midlife Crisis" book.
H spent most of his day watching t.v downstairs.
I made a nice roast beef and all the trimimgs dinner and told H that once he moves out he is invited to come back for Sunday meals. He thanked me.
I said and if S,who will be moving out with H, wants to come and needs a ride I will go pick him up.
He thanked me for dinner and helped clean up afterwards. He also complemented me during the dinner.
It was nice but I was a little uneasy as he seems a little uncomfortable. I suppose I do also. We have this moving date looming and we both know but neither says anything.
I said my peace yesterday (see post above) so he knows how I feel.
I did the dishes and he went back downstairs.
As the night went on and around 8 he came up here and went into his room and closed the door to his room to watch t.v
I went in to hug him, no real reason other than I wanted to.I could feel the cell phone under his pillow. He didn't deny it but was obviously hiding it.
The point I'm getting at is that I felt "nothing" the hug was empty,cold and unfeeling. Why?????
Waiting for closing date is like waiting for another bomb to drop but I know the date.
3 weeks sems like an eternity.
I almost wish he could leave sooner. To get it over with. It's like waiting to get your tooth to be pulled. You know it's coming and it's going to hurt like hell but you have to do it to get it to the heal properly.
my emotions are very confused right now
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"Sometimes in the winds of change, we find our true direction"
