For all those who consider that I feel the ultimate victim. This isn't how I see myself. I know there is no magic bullet, and I am constantly trying new things, doing things for myself, giving H time and space, and using it to my advantadge, focusing on me, and, yes, feeling all those feelings that swirl around. I have printed out each and every reposne I have received on these boards and keep them, re-read them. I have taken some suggestions, and left others behind, done what I felt was best for me at that time. I don't want to defend myself, it is hard to read all of the advice, and chart a course of action, and be told that I am somehow functioning in a "deflecting" plastic bubble, as far as the boards are concerned.
