Out of the Blue?

[kturnernc]

APOM, I think you are right. I think a list would be good. It will help me do little things that seem to be productive. I am already making a list of things that I like about myself. One more won't kill me. And I know that those thoughts and feelings are not productive, but as I have found out, there is a huge difference between knowing and actually putting that knowledge to work.

And Adora, if anything I say seems to help, please by all means take it, use it. Oh, and you mentioning that it hurts when you don't have the kids on the weekend, kind of makes me feel a bit better about my sitch. At least I know that the wife can be bothered by the situation that she has started as she has not shown too much emotion to me up to this point. Guilty pleasure or knowledge that this hurts her too? Should I take hope in that? Who knows at this point.

Thanks for the kind words and thoughts all.