I have felt this overwelming feeling of letting go tonight. The last few days have been very odd....H blew up at me Friday night then called everyone I knew and even went looking for me so he could apologize. I talked to him some yesterday and said I understood. Today however he went to see the OW with my kids, and then I found out that he took them with him looking for me friday night and they thought I was hurt or something!! I was so upset over it that I when I did talk to him, I blew up at him and said somethings I shouldnt have. Then I told him that maybe I should just tell the OW what he had been up to....he then BEGGED me not to. You guys....me and him have never had a "real argument". This was a first and it was so liberating to me. He is mad. Blamed me and the OW for being the ones playing games! Even acted like he wanted to cry....it was all such a put on to me. Ugh I finally told him "you know what, you go and be with the OW, it really doesnt matter to me anymore"...He did not like that.
It might have been a bad idea to engage in this argument, but it felt so good and right to me. I finally stood up to this man!
I really feel like I am letting go...I didnt care what I said to him, I just said what I felt. AND I didnt worry about what kind of reaction I was going to get from him. I wasnt for once worried about making him angry..
Am I letting go a little? I almost said to him...give me the papers already!
Kissak
"What time I am afraid, I will trust in thee." Psalms 56:3 M-37 H-37 S-10, D-15 M- 1993 First bomb- 12/23/06 Came and went too MANY times! Gone again 10-25-10
