He says he wants to "love someone with his whole heart." and although he will always love me, blah, blah, blah. . . He also says he doesn't believe in marriage anymore, that there are places in his life that are no longer any of my business. . .
Sounds just like my wife's script. There must be a training program for these people. And it must be very effective, because they all say the same things.
I took those lessons and learned and found myself and my happiness from within. And I stopped looking for him to fulfill all my needs.
Can you tap into that strength again? I'll bet you can. You sound like a very together woman.
...now we're getting close to the time when we'll have time to do all the stuff we planned on doing. . .
Oh...don't I know that feeling. You know what? I thought I had it wired. We got the last kid off on his own. We had my military pension. We were getting settled after a life of moving around. And just when I thought we could start to have some fun, she went off the deep end and I lost her. Instead of DBing and GALing and 180ing and reading a thousand self-help books and generally working my butt off to try and save our marriage, we could be traveling, and having fun, and enjoying our lives and each other. Honestly, I don't know if I'll ever be able to forgive her for robbing us of that...of that precious time. I think I'm more bitter about that than anything else. And that bitterness has really helped me detach from the pain.
Why is this ethereal being elevated above me and why is she going to reap the benefits to all of my hard work and sacrifices?
When he looks at you he has to be strong enough to face his life and himself. But he is weak right now. He can't do it. She knows little or nothing about him, so he doesn't have to face his fears with her. And she is weak too. A strong woman would tell him that he has a wife and family and she's not that kind of person.
Wah, , ,I'm being a big, fat baby and getting a little tired of hearing myself whine!
You're not whining. This is one of the most painful things that anyone can experience in their life.
Hang in there, Leah. You sound really strong...a good wife and mother. None of us deserve this, we didn't ask for it, and it's not our fault. It's totally unfair. But there's nothing we can do about it but be strong and patient. Unfortunately, we have to be the strong ones.
Try to do something for yourself this evening. You deserve it.
Bomb
Me: 51 W: 50 M 24 yrs EA: since Apr 06 S22, S26, S28 ILYBNILWY:Nov 07
"It's only after we've lost everything that we're free to do anything." Tyler Durden
