Out of the Blue?

[kturnernc]

Trying to GAL is harder than I thought. I wonder if I am expecting too much too soon. I mean it was only yesterday that I was thinking on this. The idea of her dating... ugh. Just sends waves of emotions through me.

I really don't know what I am going to do to keep my mind off of her and my sitch. I really need to figure some stuff out. Today has not really been a high point either. I am going to reread some of the sections in the books and some others I got. I am also going to try to get out of the house. Being here alone makes me realize how alone I feel.

Also, yesterday I noticed that the WAW took off her ring. I don't know if she had done that before but I noticed this time. I am trying not to read much into it. But it was a gift from me on our 10th anniversary.

I am on such a wild roller coaster of emotions. Mostly depression and despair.