Before the walk w looked like she wanted to say something and then said she felt bad about going out to eat the other night and leading me on. That was a stab to me but not that bad, I went knowing that this may be how she feels. She said something like i dont need her as a friend. I was going to say yes i do when her mom called, at first i was thinking another thing in the way of conversations then i felt thankfull. thankfull i could think about it for a while.
After my last post wife comes in room and mentioned a couple appartments for rent. I said yeh i havnt been looking. After she said more i said you know your asking me to leave my family. she said yah i guess. She said this could go on forever this way. I said i cant talk about this right now i need to think.
Earlier before any of this happened i was getting a plan for when i needed to have this talk. Now i cant rationalise, cant think nicely.
light switch
Me 37 W 37 D21 D17 D12 S8 grandparents 7/07 boy Married 16 yrs last June 07 Bomb dropped 4/07
"Do what you feel in your heart to be right-for you'll be criticized anyway. You'll be damned if you do, and damned if you don't", Eleanor Roosevelt
