He had a hard time at 40 and the year before he turned 50 he was in complete denial. He played it off like it was a big joke but he was disturbed.
What I really think it over the last few years he just slowly sank into a slow moving, downward spiraling depression. . . not toxic, just negative and destructive. Colored his whole world. His Dad, his best friend, everyone who knows him notices a change in his attitude and his behavior. Dark and moody, pessimistic and negative, half empty kind of guy. 180 in his perspective on things.
The whole grandfather thing. . . after the baby became a year and a half old, my son found out she wasn't even his biological child! So, not only has our once brilliant, enviable family become a poster child for family dysfunction but we have also lost our only granddaughter and it is probably too late for our son to pick up his college ball career
Everyone, except my H, is totally devastated by the loss.
2007 was a horribly sucky year. . .really hoping 2008 is better
Not sure how much more loss our family can handle.
