Finding my way out of the dark

[mishka422]

The concert was great fun. It was at a total dive bar which is WAY outside my normal comfort zone but I was with one of the girls from work so it was fun. The place was packed to the rafters which completely overwhelmed them. I don't think they expected quite that turn out but they should have since it was Doug Stone performing (country music for those who are uninitiated).

H did take S13 bowling last night while I was out. They had a very good time. I haven't talked to him at all since I called him yesterday about taking our son out. I want to so badly just to check in and see what's up. I'll control my impulse though.

I really have felt God laying on my heart to connect with my H. I want him to understand that I am here for him as his safe haven if he decides he needs one and that I will not judge him for what he's done but forgive him with unconditional love in my heart. That really is how I've come to feel about it. Am I still angry that he did this? Yes, but not intensely. Am I upset that he is living with OW? Yes, but he doesn't see that he has any other choice.

I want him home more than anything but I don't want him home and broken. Nothing will improve that way. I know I have to be paitient.

How do you have interaction with your spouse without making it seem like your pursuing them? My H is not ever the one to make first contact but seems to like it when we talk.