I do have family, and friends, and a life, more so than H, actually. And they all know about our sitch because it would be impossible to hide it. I am always curious at the advice we hear to keep the split under wraps, but I don't know how this is possible unless one is geographically far away, or why that would be a good thing to do anyway.
I just am too sad right now and the tears are too close to the surface. I think I feel worse now than I did when he first left.
I do have plans to go to my friend's place to watch the Academy Awards later. I have been looking forward to this and it will be fun once I get there. I can't seem to get it together to even fix the food I am bringing.
Oh well, I have 5 hours to try to get off my ass, get to the store, buy some Asti, orange juice, French bread, come home, prepare the marinated vegetables, pack up, get back in the car and drive to Seattle.
