I am so confused, not sure what hand I am playing

[Snow White]

Well my friend called yesterday afternoon, I have not been talking to her or anyone much as I have been more to myself not wanting anyone to know and not good at hiding my sadness. It came up in conversation something about H's coworker that is renting our friends house. Yup, that is right the house she moved into last weekend belongs to 2 of my best friends, members of our wedding party who do not know what is going on. The reason it came up is because she was saying they are unhappy with her becuase she has had a man over a few times already and there was a stipluation in the contract given she came from a house her boyfriend wrecked that there be no people other than her and her daughter there. When I called my H to discuss how he had helped her get the house (that he claimed not to know where she had moved) his main interest in the conversation was who this man was at her house(and it wasn't him it was while we were on vacation). I decided that enough was enough and told him I was going out for the evening, half expecting him to challenge me(I have gone out while he stayed home maybe 3 times in 12 1/2 years). He said you go right ahead, have a good time you deserve it. I just have to go to my moms quick and throw the laundry in the dryer. So off he went and I called my friend, he called in about 10 min to see if I actually called her. When he came home, he was different. Asking where I was going, when I would be home. There was a shake in his voice. I told him we were going into the city, he said I never go there. Oh well. I said it is too boring locally for only 2 people. I know it is not right to do this but I said is there anything you need to say before I go? He said like what? I said we discussed earlier the need to have only 2 people in our marriage, if that is not what you want let me know before I go and I can make it happen. I know it was wrong, but I am sick of being on the end of the stick that is squirming. He said I love you and have a good time, take your cell phone with you. Well my friend's house is about 5 minutes away, as I walked in the door my phone was going off, now I did reply to most of the texts, but really it was continuous the entire 3 or 4 hours I was gone. I reminded him in the texts more than once that I loved him and he is the one that is having trouble making decisions. When I came home he was up and wanted to know about my time, I told him sat with my friend and talked had 3 drinks, someone bought us one more(someone he knows, I don't), didn;t end up drinking it. Asked me this morning why this guy bought us a drink. He mentioned again what I said last night this morning - he knows I did nothing. I said you know me, for 12 years, I said that to you to try to have you open up your feelings that you will not tell me. I will not be with anyone else until I know that there is no more you and I. I did check the computer and phones after I left today, to my knowledge no contact of OW.