Journaling, Ok this all started Thursday April 12th at 7:00pm while sitting on the computer I needed to clean up some space and found Intimate pictures of my W and the OM. This has been a long journey. I made many wrong turns, had to back track. Made some advancement. I have learned allot. I think I have learned more about myself and life in the last year than I leaned the first 48 years. Everyone here has their own way of dealing with pain and suffering. I have learned from you all. None of us have chosen the easy way out to just ignore it and "It will go away". Sometimes I have had tunnel vision and only saw what I wanted to see. You the people here gave me the wide screen version of my sitch. I feel like I have been traveling through a long dark tunnel. Coming upon one obstacle after another (like Indiana Jones). But I think I see the light at the end. I see the light but I don't know what I will find when I come out. But what I do know is that at least the uncertainty will be over. Good or bad I will have released this burden I have been caring deep inside. Time... Everyone said "it will get easier" "it takes time". Well I have given it time. And yes I think I can confront my fears better equipped but I really don't think it gets easier. The next 24 hours are going to be the longest 24 hours in my life. I so hope everything will turn out great. I so want to hear Sara say "I told you so". On the other hand if it turns out different at least it is a start. A new journey letting go of the past and looking forward to the new adventure that lies ahead...
Thanks everyone for helping me travel this maze. I think I see the cheese....
DrLove
And if I claim to be a wise man, well It surely means that I don't know
