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Oh Stella, I'm so sorry to hear you are having such a difficult time.
I know exactly how you feel. I think the issue of OW is the toughest for me to handle. I've had a really tough week with very vivid images of H and OW. I also have had a rough time sleeping. Last night I slept fairly well because I had spoken to H a little earlier about S and I knew he wasn't with OW. The previous night he spent here on the couch because S was sick - again I was able to sleep because he definitely wasn't with OW. I'm having a really difficult time handling the infidelity.

Stella, I also have spoken to no one else about my sitch (except to the people on this board). A couple of people who haven't heard from me have emailed me wondering how I'm doing but I've been avoiding contact. I won't be able to do that much longer - my sister is coming for a visit in a couple of weeks and I'll have to let her know beforehand.

I don't know what to suggest to you. Have you tried talking to a C? Your H will contact you if you can hold out long enough. Does your D ever contact him? Try to hang in there - I know it's so difficult. Come on here and let out your feelings, do not hold it all in - this has helped me a lot.