don't you dare have second thoughts about your trip to Berlin. You booked it when you felt really down and it sounded and is a great idea. Enjoy your trip and stop worrying aboyt him feeling jealous or whatever. You don't have to rub in to him but he has no control over your life (although I know you would like him to).
So, enjoy your trip darling!!
(blond!!!) Kalni
PS1 About the messages: sorry, the English is too advanced for me, didn't get it...
PS2 You said you'll change you hair color to honour me, I am waiting to be honoured...