All I can hold on to is myself, kids and this site

[BEAUTYandWAH]

Hi Joie,
He is feeling lots better. He had kids for Fri overnight and most of Sat. I finally had time for myself and went out with my friends. I was going to stay up late but I was soo tired and came home. I guess I was REALLY tired and slept 12 hours! While I was thinking "humm, life can be pretty good", I recieved text from H saying

"I have not heard from you all day. what u doing".

I thought about texting him then but I thought about BDing/detaching etc.. So, I put the cell phone down and went to take shower, get ready for the day, make-up, call friends, eat... etc.

So, I am feeling good today even though he blew up on me about small thing but I just led it go quickly. I am back on the track!

Oh.. I checked my bank account (personal and joint)and found out he really does not have money besides the next month rent. So... even I want to take all the money out from his account during the trip, there is no money. Oh well, I guess OW will have to take care of my H, without my help anyways. I am not sure how I feel about this.. I thought I can do something to ruin his trip!!.. well life does not go the way I want sometimes..

Beauty