I was wondering what you were doing up so late, but then I read your post and it is one of those nights/mornings...
I am sorry my friend, I don't know if it helps, but I Know exactly how you feel. I've been there and I 'll probably get there again.
There isn't much we can do, both me and you. Our Hs need to figure out their s$it before they can become loving and caring and themselves again.
I had a good day yesterday, went out (and I am telling you men DO prefer blonds) but through all the afternoon/night I kept hearing in my head what he said to my T about how he doesn't want to be loved or love someone and that made me feel very sorry and concerned about him. But I can't help. It's his problem, he needs to take care of it.
Stay strong, hang in there. Nobody forces us to do that but we chose to do it because we love them. For as long as this love stays alive, we actually have no other choice..
