I agree completely. Caught me on a bad night (morning actually as it is 3 a.m. again.). Sometimes you realize you are doing all the heavy lifting and your spouse is doing absolutely nothing in terms of the relationship. I can't carry the load any more. Sounds like you can't either. They will get a wake up call when we are gone. They may like the freedom. They may hate the loneliness. But we can't continue on like we are. At least that is how I feel........ Never knew how lonely it could feel to want a hug at 3 am and not have someone to give it to you. Sorry if I am bumming you out. I just get what you are saying. You are ready for some peace and a break from what life is like these days. I get that. I wish you all the best and will be checking up on you a lot......
