I hate this loneliness living with her. Today she let me hold her hand while she sat on the couch. I'm trying different things to bring us closer. Her lack of affection silently hurts my heart.
The only comfort I have with my stich is when I read the six stages of an MLC. I believe my W is definately deep in an MLC. Its difficult to pinpoint what stage she's currently at. I feel her replay will always be in our M. My W likes to party.
My hope is she's in the withdrawl stage. If not then I have alot of waiting left to do. To gauge where she is I'm watching to see if she starts to apologize for everything. I don't think she will say she's sorry to me. There was an OM in her life but the relationship wasn't physical.
Our councelor says we're co-living together. This sucks.
Its depressing living with her. I want so bad to leave this house and continue living. I'm only venting and nothing has been put in the works. I keep telling myself my D wouldn't handle a divorce. In reality I can't handle this sham of a marriage.
Fixer (Not of marriages, or broken hearts. Its only a screen name.)
