Doing This all Wrong!! HELP

[water2moon]

It's actually a bit of both really. My H told me he didn't want to get into specifics, he knew it would hurt me more. And seriously did I really need to know of the love he declared to feel for her or that he loved her body and that even her handwriting gave him chills?? If the OW would not have sent me these texts that my H sent her I would know a lot less and would not be as upset as I am. But I know she sent them out of desperation because he told her they had to cease all communication. But now that i know just how much he seemed to love her and that he was contemplating moving in with her and her son I wonder why he's still here and if he can truly stay away.Also is he here only for the kids? And I often feel as though he'll never love me again. I know i'm falling into a deep depression as I think of nothign else and wantt o do nothign but lie in bed all day. I have been to a Therapist but all she seems to focus on is changing my hair and trying to look better so I can irk him..May have to find another one soon.I know that H is depressed and probably missing her and this hurts like heck.I wish people seriously thought about the consequences that Afffairs have on spouses before they do it.