Finding Supermom - #4

[JennyF]

Thank you Cheyenne...and about the undies...haven't quite gotten there yet. Soon.
But my hair looks great!

I went straight from the salon to pick up S. I went inside to see D as well. She was in a really great mood and was really cute with me. She didn't cry or anything when I left...I was really proud of her. Actually I was proud of me too because even though I could feel it welling up inside...I didn't.
SIL gave me a tight hug when I was leaving. She saw me fighting the tears, but I made into the car before they released! PHEW!
Anyway, I hope he noticed how great my hair looked.

My mind has been going in circles again today trying to accept this current reality. I called my Mom and let it out...she's a Supermom too! She just let me dump it all out. I felt better afterward...but I'm frutrated with myself that I'm having such a hard time with it. I want to be able to accept this so that I can work on myself knowing I'll be ok with or without him. And truly I know I will make it work either way. Piece of cake.
The hard part is believing that there's a possibility it is really over. The more time that goes on, the stronger this feeling is in me that it's got to work out. I thought it was supposed to go the other way???

I'm procrastinating again with these legal papers. S is going with H tomorrow morning for a few hours again so I'm planning to tackle them then.
My biggest hope is that once all this shakes out with the lawyers, it won't be in his financial best interest to sell the house. If that's the case, I may get some breathing room.


Well, I have a brutal chest cold and didn't get much sleep last night what with the wine and the girl talk until 3 AM...so I'm climbing into bed with a good book early tonight.
J~