I know what you mean - it's a terrible feeling. This may change in the future, but there is still the tunnel or whatever it is to pass through. Sometimes I find strength and comfort myself by thinking of the success stories.
I'm home alone tonite - didn't get around to making plans and didn't really feel like going out to a movie or anything else, really. Little bit of depression, but also my way - I tend to be a homebody. I used to love my alone time and would often read for hours. Reading Infidel for book club right now - not exactly Sat nite fare.
me: 47 H: 48 he has 2 grown sons M 1995(my 1st, his 3rd) hit iceberg 6/07 S 9/26/07 before now