[Dr LOve]

Hey NikB,
I read your E-mail. Again you are right. I am going to talk to her after son goes to school on Monday. I will not ask for a D. It's not what I really want. But I will tell her I don't know what's left. She is the analytical one, I am the emotional one. I will ask her what she would do if she were in my shoes. You were actually 99.9 present right. I don't think she can ever or will ever know what this has done to me. I don't expect an apology, I don't.
But What I do want and expect is if we are going to make this M work I can not do it by myself. My pretending to be happy and all IS DECEVING. I am lying to her. Now I am not saying I need to go back to the miserable, crying person I was when this first happened. I can't. All of you have helped me grow beyond that. I am going to re read what you sent me over a few times before Monday.
Until them.... I'M HOME BABY.... I had a great time. Met allot of people. Saw some awesome places. Lived without internet and became ME...The other thing I learned is I NEVER want to spend my B-Day alone again.

And........


My W needs my love baby, oh so bad
She's not the only one I've ever had
And if I say I wanna set her free
Don't you know she'll be in misery
They call me (Dr. Love)