Partner left after 9 years - now we're friends??

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Ahhh.. (god this is exhausting !)..well, whilst agonising over my reply, drawing up logic diagrams of all the possible permutations of responses and the cause and effect of every statement (I'm kidding)...he sent me another text !

It was something jokey back to my jokey text about last night...So. Whanged a reply straight back. I said I was sorry to hear he was feeling low and I hope it helps to be back home. I've been working hard all day and I said call if you want a chat. Oh dear Jeff, do you think I may have spooked him back into the woods!!??

I dont expect him to call at all, as he is around people. I thought I'd be brave though and extend an olive branch, make it easy for him. He did text me twice at least! (god I hate mobile phones).

I am amazed that he has admitted to me "I feel low"..it cant be to do with me (?) - I havent put any guilt trip on him since before Christmas. I guess he could be lonely in his crummy flat. But, he was out last night...then must have woken up and literally couldnt face 2 days by himself before he went back to work on Monday..and probably didnt want to have to phone me again and see me. That puts a different slant on the past two weekends, maybe my friend was right, maybe he spent time with me just because he is low and needed company and it doesnt mean that he is having any regrets.

Or maybe he is missing me, but cant admit it.

I will look back on this phase of my life as just about the most frustrating series of events that I ever had to live through !!! Beam me up Scotty !!! (((Jeff))) (((IMP))) (((T !!)))