I am so confused, not sure what hand I am playing

[Snow White]

What I can handle at this point seems to be absolutely nothing. I can't handle not snooping and wondering if there is something there, and I can't handle finding this stuff because each thing no matter how large or small I blow up over(now is it an over reaction, well he said he wouldn't contact her). I am a complete and total mess and I wouldn't want to be with me either!