Thanks Joie. I know you're right.

I'm sorry to say that it is a beautiful day out and I have been in bed with the blinds shut tight. I feel so awful. Is this what depression is? I just can't get with it today; just not motivated. Hope it's just temporary as I am drowning in tears. This should have been a great day for "us", but there is no "us". H isn't here and doesn't care.