Hi Ali Big hug! I've just caught up on your last few days - you make me laugh! I think you could almost have solved world peace or hunger in 3rd world countries, with the energy that has gone into dissecting the word 'perhaps'!
I'm sorry that you are having a crappy day. They are part of the process, and you will find that the dips aren't as steep and you recover faster, but you just have to go with them.
You will be OK! Even if he never comes back, even if he doesn't call this weekend. I promise that you are going to be OK and so much stronger and probably happier that you can imagine. I know it doesn't feel like it right now.... Anyway I'm on the other side of the world, thinking of you, and hoping you are able to do some nice things this weekend and enjoy what you have instead of focusing on what you don't have.
I don't know about you but one thing I appreciate about being single is when I've cleaned the house it stays clean instead of finding grimy fingerprints. And I can read late at night without disturbing someone. And this morning I had chocolate and potato chips in bed for breakfast!!
