It is hard to watch someone you love...especially someone you are in love with...hurt those who love them...even more, it is harder to see how they are hurting themselves...we so much want to protect them too...but the sad reality is this must go on for it to end...if you try to stop it...it just drags on...
The hardest thing for me was watching my H destroy himself and everything around him...but I realized that is what I had to do...I had to LET him fail...then when there was NO fight left in him he was ready to get help...he was ready to talk to me...it was a hard road to repair...I questioned myself many times if I was doing the right thing...I questioned if it would really work...if we could really get through this and still have a marriage worth saving...
But in the end...I am glad I did what I did...I am happy now...H is very happy now...we are leaving tomorrow morning to Hawaii for our anniversary...28 years...I missed my 25th due to his crisis...but I can no longer look back...just like when I was DB'ing...I have to keep looking forward...and so does H
