I DON'T KNOW

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I actually typed this on my noon break and it didnt submit right so its 9 hours late and i have already gone out to eat with my w.

Well here it goes. This song made my eyes tear up on my way to counceling a couple weeks ago. I've always liked this song it seems to have more meaning now. One lyric that sticks out is "its not always rainbows and butterflies it's compromise that moves us along".
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6VGpTznuVhA

As i was finding the song on you tube. My phone beeps w: "its wrong im sure but do u want to go out to eat tonight and talk"
Thats why i named my thread I DON'T KNOW.

While she was in NC w/om i slept in our bed. when i made the bed before she returned i short sheeted it. That's just who i am. I've lost alot of that over the years and will become who I want to be. Thought i would share that.

When she returned she asked to talk. she still wants me out. and asked what i wanted. I said someone to share (enjoy)the rest of my life with prefrably you. she said she wasnt sure if i still wanted her. I commented that im not begging her to come back but preparing myself for the worst (d).
well thats the idea of that conversation.

next day she texted me saying that her mom asked her if she was going to leave the kids and move out there... and she isnt sure that this is worth the pain its causing everyone.
she said that her going to see om is just that and they dont talk about their future together. She says when im home and she is also she doesnt want to do anything and seems depressed.

I feel to get equal custody of our children and become finacialy stable i need to file for d.
I feel to save my marrage i need to move out.
I still trust her but here many people say how spouces change throught this.

I have to go back to work.

try to be on later with more gatherd thoughts.
any comments on eating tonight?

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