Out of the Blue?

[kturnernc]

Well I think that I may have back slid a little. I went to pick up the kids today from the W and got into a little bit of an argument. First a little back story on today's events...

I had a therapist appointment today. During the session he brought up a few points that I have only sort of thought about. The first point was what would I do if she wanted back and the second was how would I feel if she started dating someone. Well the dating kinda rubbed me raw a bit and understood that I would be upset so soon after we separated. Fast forward to me picking up the boys.

I walked in and noticed that she had her scrubs on (she is a nurse). I asked if she was going to work and her response was "yeah, I picked up a shift because I did not have the kids and I did not have a date". Well after the session earlier, I was a bit upset. So I responded that dating was something that we had to talk about. Then I left the room to get the kids ready. Well we started talking about it and she was hot. Accusing me of wanting to date and telling me that she was offended that I thought that she was a slut. That she did not want to date and that she would never bring anyone around the house. I was floored! I did not mean any of that at all. So I apologized that the context got out of whack and that was not what I meant. Anyway, after a few minutes I hurried up and left with the kids.

After I left, I felt bad that I had hurt her, so I emailed her and told her I was sorry again, and that I had not meant to upset her. That I had spoken about it in session and it was on my mind.

Was this a bad thing? How bad did i screw up? I had not mentioned anything for the past week or so at all!! DAMMIT!