Thanks Olive... she wants to meet tomorrow. I just had a thought that she might be pregnant, that would really really really hurt me. It's totally possible too.

D told me W, OM and W's sisters all went out to eat and drank beer at a chicken wings place. Freakin 2 weeks ago she couldnt stop thinking of me, felt so lost without me, wasnt sleeping with OM.

Now she is sleeping with OM, partying with OM and she even told me she just joined the gym as she has gained 20 pounds. D told me she drinks 5-6 beers a day.

Im really towards the end of the ride here, contemplating filing for divorce again and following through. I miss a womans companionship and would love to just hang out at the park with someone of the opposite sex and talk. Im tired of waiting for W, her bi-polar is never going to go away and OM offers her more than I can (even though all he is is a waiter at a restaurant).

Im still Hurtin4certain

Hurtin: 32
WAW: 30
D: 8
Bomb: 10/05
Sep: 12/05
Back together 8/07
Bomb (OM): 11/07
Filed for D (me): 12/07