LRT UNDER SAME ROOF IIII

[craig54]

i will admit , alot of my success with my wife has been the ability to not react when she says something that would have previously upset me. i am able to internalize it. i usually let it out when i see the mc, or i come here. anywhere but at home. my wife just sees a completely calm husband. it has made a signifigant difference. because for all her bluster at times as far as moving out, she really has made very little effort to do so. of course, that could change at any time. she is getting some money , i would assume from her fathers estate, and who knows what she will do with it.

the hardest part to honest with you is the lack of intimacy. not one touch or kiss in 5 months is a lot to deal with. also , just realizing that this whole process could take many more months.
so i have to mentally and spiritually prepare myself for the long haul, with no guarantee of success. that is where my faith in the Lord comes into play. i know i have seen little positive steps the last couple of months. but i also know that until the divorce is taken off the table i will be very apprehensive. my emotonial well being is at stake. so i am being very careful to not put too much faith in what my wife says or does. that is why i pray everyday for strength, patience, and a loving heart. because i do have moments of weakness, just looking at a photo of the family, can still bring tears to my eyes. i see so many people on the bb's who are struggling. i wish i could get everybody to understand the time frame we are looking at. this is not a quick fix. it takes more patience than i thought i could ever muster up.