hey all, long time no see. was really busy last week/weekend, then got knocked hard by my first case of flu in 15 years. omg. forgot what a killer it is. and serves me right...I never get a flu shot, because, well, I haven't had the flu in 15 years, why bother? now I know why. ugh. thankfully I do get my kids the shot and so far (knock wood) they are all fine. hope they will stay that way.
had a rough few days and pretty much no help. I'm proud of myself in one way...I did ask h to come by after work an extra night to help with the kids. so he has been here to put them to bed/run them around for the last 3 nights. considering I've barely been out of bed during that time, that is a very good thing. I found something out about myself, though. as much progress as I think I've made, I still have a very hard time communicating things I need from h. I just don't want to ask. maybe that will take another year of therapy, who knows. but thought it was an interesting observation. someday I'd like to say, hey, I need you to take a day off of work. instead I still want him to just do it without me asking (I have a problem when its work related). I know, I know, wrong. at least I recognize it, though. something to work on. but I'm still proud that I did ask for him to come the extra night, and even asked him to get me a couple of things yesterday on his way over.
he's gone for business as of today so I'm on my own with the kids for the weekend, but I am up (for the most part) at last and sooo much better. just really really weak still. but getting better, and at least don't feel near death anymore.
not much else to report. hey, thought my observations above were damned good considering my current state.
hope everyone else is well. should be around tomorrow to check in.
M-41 H-38 M-10 years, T-14 years Bomb-PA 3/19/07 Separated-6/7/07 Piecing/h back home 5/08 S-6 S-4 D-4
"Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is that little voice at the end of the day that says, 'I'll try again tomorrow.'"
