New and alone

[cw68]

Jen, don't beat yourself up over your backslide. I think we all do that now and then, the goal is just not to do it. Take it one day at a time. Trust me, and others here, when I say I understand how difficult it is do this and to take it slow. Just pick two things out each day and stick to that. That's my goal. I think that down the road, it'll be good DBing, good GALing.

Like last night, I so wanted to lean into my husband while watching a movie, but I didn't. I think he would have "allowed" it at the time, yet it would have been a bad overall move. I focused on that the WHOLE flipping movie. (Luckily I had seen the movie before!) My other day's focus was not saying a word about us/our relationship. One successful day.

Today's goals: not call, text or email him now that we've gotten the necessary home remodel/son's t-ball correspondence out of the way. Start organizing the house, one closet/one room at a time.

Tomorrow's goals: repot three plants in the house that need it and plant ten flowering plants outside. Not call him, text, email him all day, but be very upbeat should he contact me.