CONTACTING OW/OW'S HUSBAND

[kikidee]

I'm surprised that you are concerned about me feeling as though I have regained some control. I feel as though it's a good thing. It's a lot easier to get through the days this way. To be clear, I don't feel as though I am in much control of anything other than my own state of mind. I am trying to take more control of my own and my kids' situation - not my H or my M. He and I are having a talk tomorrow and I want him to know that I am in control - of me - and not just waiting around for him to make a decision. I know and am starting to accept that he is only capable of making decisions about his own future and not that of the kids or me, except in that he can choose to be a part of our future or not. I don't see the fact that he has agreed to talk as a sign of progress, since it has been asked for (by me) and suggested (by the friend with whom he is staying). I don't know what I expect from tomorrow. I am trying to think of all possibilities and how I might react, in order to keep myself from losing control and reacting adversely to what he says. I am getting nervous but still feel, while it's more than a day away that I am in a calmer state of mind, which will serve me well.

Any thoughts are much appreciated.

K