I came to a conclusion last night while trying to sleep in my crappy little apartment. I am getting screwed on this whole living arrangement deal.
She is the one that wanted to seperate yet for conveniance and financial reasons I am the one that moved out (I can stay in the apartment at the fire dept for nothing). I miss my home, I miss being comfortable. I hate everything about my apartment, I hate the smell even. And the worst part is I work at the fire dept. all day and then get off work and simply walk up stairs to my apartment, so I never leave work technically..
I am thinking very very seriously about telling her on Sunday when she gets home, that I am moving back home, she can stay or she can go that's up to her, but I am not spending another night in that crappy apartment. The financial part will be trying but if I have to eat Ramen Noodles for awhile I can do that. I realize completely that she may use this as an opportunity to move in with om, but I will deal with that, and at this point I am getting to where I don't really care, well at least today I don't..
