Hey Jenny, Think we may be on the same depression cycle. It's my turn now. Thanks for explaining what SG told you. I understand it better. I hope that we all find our peace. I feel like saying the same thing to my H about "...if anyone ever hurts our daughter.." He knows he has hurt me, deeply. It doesn't seem to change a thing. And, as far as Mom'ing up, unfortunately, that doesn't always work. My H looks up to his Dad for approval more than any person on this planet. Both his parents told him that what he was doing was wrong, they don't want to have anything to do with his new R and that he should be working on his marriage not running from his responsibilities. Nothing worked. He is dead set on NOT being with me. So, I guess all those times that he has come over and been sweet and/or wanted sex...what was that all about, just a stupid yearning for the familiar? I hate my H right now. I keep reading your posts hoping that I will be able to put that anger and hatred away and be strong for my D and I. The anger is tearing me up, but I can't find my love for H, right now. I find myself cursing him and wishing him misery. How do you deal with those feelings, Jenny? Do you ever get like that? I watch you and SO2 and your sitch's. I am really happy for SO2 and I keep waiting for your sitch to turn in the better direction. I'm gonna be here when it does. I have faith that it will. I wish I had your strength.
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M 5yrs 1st baby-girl born 6/18/08 Bomb: 10/13/07 OW - I was 6wks Prego H Moved in w/OW: 11/2/07 D Final 07/10 OW had his baby 3/17/09-so her Me, now - happier than I ever was with him
