Finding my way out of the dark

[mishka422]

We're meeting for dinner tomorrow night. I'm as nervous as a girl on a first date. How dumb is that? I have no idea what the heck we're going to talk about. We had agreed that we needed to sit down and talk about some settlement issues before we meet with the L's again to hopefully save some time and get some things agreed on prior to mediation. I hope to heavens that is not what he wants to talk about the whole time.

He asked me where I wanted to meet and I took a while thinking about it. Someplace quiet or someplace loud and full of activity? I went with full of activity. I thought it wouldn't feel as pressured that way and the place we are going has a band on Friday nights so it should be fun in that respect.

I'm going to pray tonight for guidance and courage tomorrow. I'm so emotionally spent right now. I hope I can maintain calm and serenity.....scary scary scary to me.