I just want to make it better. . .

[seekpeaceofmind]

Jbly - I'm sorry that you find yourself in this place. Do you think that maybe the best thing for you right now is to focus on the counseling, heal yourself and then see where you stand relationship-wise? Your fiancee may still be available, she may not, but you will be ready either way for the next chapter of your life? This is outside my realm of experience, but it just seems like you have to deal with you and get past that before you can repair your relationship. 'Does your fiancee show any interest in the fact that you have started counseling? What has she said about how final her decision is?