Guess what? Today, I plucked up my courage and emailed my H about being sick and also attached the boys' latest email thread. In my email, I said if I got sicker, I may need his help to watch the dog.
He was very nice. Even though, it took him a few hours to respond, his response said how sorry he was that I was sick and hoped I'd get better soon. He also said to please let him know if he can help.
A few hours later, I responded saying that I need to stay out of the cold so I can recover ASAP since I have so much to get done before leaving on vacation. I said that if I didn't get my stuff done, I'd get in trouble with my boss and higher. That I have added stress from this worry.
I said it'd be great if he could walk the dog for a day or so, whether it would be easier for him to take the dog with him or for him to come over.
He replied right away saying "I will come over tonight and walk the dog.
So he came over. He called me twice. Call #1: to tell me when he was coming over and that he won't be coming into the house becasue he didn't want to catch my flu. I was to get the dog ready and hand her over to him. Call #2: to tell me he was 10 minutes away. Anyway, he came and said "Hi Hon" from the driveway. I was in the house. "Sorry you're sick" He didn't look at me at all even when he took the leash from me. After he got back, H: Do you want me to come over in the morning? Me: If you can, that'd be good. H: What time do you go to work? Me: I may work from home. H: If I can make it, I will call you. Then he looked at me and said "Sorry you're sick". He said "Sorry" about 2-3 times then. He treated me like a leper and it really hurt. I think he apologized because he knew he was hurting my feelings by treating me like a leper. If we were not separated, wouldn't he have to be close to me? He'd be in the same house, etc. I didn't understand why he treated me this way. Was he really so worried about catching the flu? Nobody at work even treated me like that today. Or was he worried I'd ask him about the bills?
Somehow, it hurt that he wasn't even trying to take care of me. It made me think of his motives for trying in our M - was his motive to simply win my love/affection for him, but not because he love me?
Apart from feeling hurt, I am grateful that he came over to walk the dog. It took him half hour each way to drive. I guess he didn't have to come over, if he wanted to be mean.
