I think I'm done

[ms ladybug]

I hear you. Believe me, I'm not always strong at all. Somedays I breakdown, I have to. But, then I get back up, dust myself off, and face the day. I think I'm mostly strong for my kids. I can't imagine at 4yr old how my daughter comprehends this whole mess.

Your situation is still new and raw. Give it time...man, don't count the days. It takes time. But, you work on yourself, you get a life, and your wife will like what she sees in you.

I can totally relate about wanting to tell your wife about your day. It hurts that I feel like I have no one to share my life with. Not just the big things in my life, but little things like something quirky at work or a funny commercial. A couple weeks ago I had a crazy cockroach infestation in my office at work. I found it funny once the problem was fixed, and I remember thinking I wanted to call h and tell him about it...and I couldn't. It was like I had no one to see this or share this with. Sounds silly and petty, but it bothered me.