I just want to make it better. . .

[seekpeaceofmind]

Thanks, Eve. I was feeling ok while away - tried to do some reading on spiritual themes, did some sightseeing, etc. No highs, no lows. A couple of days I had too much time to think and that wasn't good, but no breakdowns. I read "eat, pray, love" in the last couple of days and got caught up in that so I was really focusing on the PMA and then just felt slammed when I got home - very sorry for myself. I know my emotions shouldn't be so tied up in how another person - even H - responds to me, but I'm not getting my head and my heart to cooperate with each other.

Could you possibly phone/txt H and keeping the conversation light and fluffy thank him for looking after the pets and ask after them? See how the conversation goes and maybe invite him over for brunch or a coffee over the weekend? Could you buy him a thank you card or a small gift of appreciation?

What's his LL?

Good point - I picked up the phone and called him after reading your message. I'm not very good at the light and fluffy stuff (not my personality), but I did my best. We had a nice talk, very safe topics of dogs, work, snow - but good. No invites - we're just not there. I did buy him a gift, but have had second thoughts about giving it to him - it's just a t-shirt from a shop in Florida that he likes. I haven't read LL yet, but I do have the book and judging from the chapter titles, I would guess his are acts of services and gifts. Maybe some touch, too.

Way past time to get home and feed those pets. . .