Make things better by looking ahead....

[sage]

I just worry that perhaps you and others here, have also reached maximum overload and are now clinically depressed. This could also be a reason for all the tears and feelings of despair. (Not that you don't have good reason for all that sadness. But maybe there is more to it?)

Jeannine -- Thank you as always for your concern! I am glad to hear that you went to see someone....I've been worried about you! DO let me know how the Sam-E works out...I considered that myself for a while and haven't ruled it out!

There have been times when I've felt pretty certain that I am depressed -- at other times, it feels like I'm not but still reeling from the shock/sadness/hurt of the a and its aftermath. I've been seeing a C. every two weeks for a few months...that's helping somewhat and I hope that she would let me know if she thought that I was depressed...or respond if I told her that I thought I was.

While reading over my post it occurred to me that it made perfect sense that the weekend my h. was AWAY contained sadness and crying, etc...I spend quite a bit of energy NOT showing how often I am sad, etc, to him, so without that constraint, well, let the tears flow!

I will be sure to keep an eye on my mental state...don't be shy if you see something that seems, well, concerning (and I'll do the same!)

Sage